Last year at this time I don't even think the LIFE IS KILLING ME album from TYPE O NEGATIVE was out yet, though I had the advance, Grego and I played it over and over so much we were nearly sick of it long before it was released to the public.
At the time I liked the lighter songs that the others lyrics didn't even sit in. I was digging "ElectroCute" and "I Like Goils" and "I Don't Wanna Be Me" as well as their destruction of "Angry Inch". Now I'm understanding Pete intentions again. Something that, shame on me, due to circumstance for the first time didn't sink in.
Now I can't quit playing "...A Dish Best Served Coldly", "Anesthesia", and "The Dream Is Dead".
Like the weather in my beloved Chicago, when it rains it fucking pours. And like biking everytime I build up momentum, something or someone puts up a roadblock.
I pledge to not travel a path where there are stop signs or slow down caution etc anymore. And it's time to take the road that says ONE WAY. My Way!
Sorry, but every time I consider anyone else I get fucked without even getting the courtesy of a kiss prior. All I ask for is honesty and loyalty from the people I associate with. Someone has to look out for me, it may as well be myself.
Laura called and insisted I stop playing TYPE O. So I switched it to DORO.
After 5 days of self imposed exile only leaving the haus to visit the boys in blue, I went out around midnight to the Street Side Cafe and ran into Charlie (Stripping The Pistol) an Julie my favorite bartender. It looks like Charlie and I are going to do a rock night there, stay tuned for details.
Thanks to Vera Blue for coming into the city to get my ass out of the haus. Look for her i the ViXXXens section later this week.
It's actualy sunny and hot out so I'm outa here.
Like a flash of light in an endless night
Life is trapped between two black entities
'Cause when you trust someone, the illusion has begun
No way to prepare, impending despair
Did one say so cruel: "Tis better to love than lose"
Ignorance is bliss - wish not knew your kiss
So many times been burned, this lesson goes unlearned
Remember desire only fuels the fire - liar
Are a thousand tears worth a single smile?
When you give an inch, will they take a mile?
Longing for the past but dreading the future
If not being used, well then you're a user and a loser
World reknowned failure at both death and life
Given nothingness, purgatory blight
To run and hide, a cowardly procedure
Options exhausted, except for anesthesia - anesthesia