May 24, 2005
Full Moon Fever
Taking my meds but my BP is at am all time high. It's un fucking believable. The stress in my life is like never before and there's only one thing I look forward to. I missed Happy's Human Pincushion show on Friday and Sunday I missed the Pigface Sunday night show the last of a tour that I sponsored. I cannot believe I felt like this. It was much worse than the panic attacks I felt I was having last May and June.
Saturday I woke up to the sounds of some rare Type O music which brought me back down a little bit. Then went for alate Mexican lunch.
Sunday I did have some killer Mexican grub at El Mariachi's and a lot of relaxation. But how can one relax with a billion things going on in his head and trying to catch up on work that I only have a handful of people helping me out with. And I don't know whether certain people who pretend to be my friends are my friends or not. I have learned not to trust so easily.
Though with the Full Moon high in the Sunday sky a beautiful moment was upon me. And some peace I did obtain. I do believe the power of the moon had a lot to do with what entailed.
Somehow I will manage to get through. How much harder can it be than last year, 'eh
Oh well I know that's not very rock n roll but damn woman space is one cold motherfucker. And there are a LOT of assholes out there that need to get a life.
See you soon.
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Posted by Alex Zander at May 24, 2005 05:30 PM